not fair

and i dont care that im acting like a child if thats what it looks like

that argument today was just horrid. and im really having trouble with a few things. that im not being believed, and trusted – i know theres a reason, but it still hurts. especially since i have trusted that person before when i had a reason not to.

the timing – i just give you a gift, a rather thoughful and slightly expensive one, and one that was to apologise for my recent insensitivity and for your faith in the exact thing you are yelling at me about not believing me on.

the 3 things that made today a significant, difficult and emotional one for me, which you knew, and still brought this up anyway, and in addition, the fact that we were in public and on a limited timeframe. very not fair.

the fact that you know how i feel about this issue, that im under stress and pressure and feel immensely guilty about it, dont do guilt well, and have major guilt things going on with it being what day it is

the fact that i couldnt say what i wanted to, that you interrupted and wouldnt let me speak, yet i had to let you say your part

that we couldnt resolve it, and had to have it in parts with interruptions.

that you said what u wanted and left without me saying what i needed, or defending myself, and left me feeling like absolute shit because you didnt want to talk at that moment for fear of regretting something you might say

that it ALWAYS has to be like this – you saying what you want, then leaving when your ready, and me being left to deal with my feelings in the meantime. that you feel better and leave me with the consequences

that this happens time and time again, which makes me feel like you dont care what it does to me

and that your ABSOLUTE WORST TIMING EVER IN THE HISTORY OF HUMANITY to do this to me today, of all days, which you were completely aware of. couldnt you hold your tongue for a more appropriate time? i have been on stuff i need to say to you, cant you give me the same courtesy you demand of me?

and stop bitching about me having crap timing and coincidences when youve just done all that to me

its not fair

JW

ive sent the link to all who know him personally. anyone who wants to see the video footage sent back can email me
it does me good to see him well. and the scene on the balcony – the guy he was standing next to actually got hit in the head. so extra good to know hes still fine

Yum

it just had to be done. PIA and i have spent the afternoon perving whilst watching this movie. Ok so weve seen it a million times. Ok so it has like, NO PLOT. Who cares? We had a ball, both of us drooling over the cars, as well as me perving on vin diesel and her at michelle rodriguez. actually i really like that rodriguez too, very pretty girl that one, and not your usual hollywood blonde bimbo only there to screw the lead actor. this one gets roles where she has some balls. always attractive in a woman. PIA reckons if she was into guys, shed prefer paul walker. sigh. i guess that shows why shes a lesbian – she has NO CLUE when it comes to men!
And on a whole other note, but here because i only just got it sent to me and im too lazy to do another post (and ive only just figured out this spiffy way of uploading pics) this provided me with a good laugh.

something in the water

quite a few people have been odd the past couple of days

maybe theres something in the water?

coz even i feel a bit blaaaaggghhh atm

i fucked up

ok so i know i bitch alot here about other people and their stupid insensitive things they do

now ive done one

DH bought a new car. not new, 2nd hand, but new for him. got rid of one of his cars for one like this thing over there. and instead of saying nice things, all i did was say it was ugly. that i didnt like it. and sorta complained about having to deck it out for him (he didnt ask, just mentioned the necessity of it – but we all know what that means, right?)

so when he calls back tonight, I will be the first to say sorry for above offense, and to offer my support. even if it is an awful looking car. *wink*

FOOLISH PEOPLE

i have come to the conclusion that SOME PEOPLE ARE IDIOTS

in the meme i posted the other day, i listed one of the websites i visit daily as a lesbian porn site

i was joking people

i mean, seriously. c’mon.

i wanted to blog i swear!

i really did! and i was in such a cheery mood too

but then i ran into a dickhead on msn who just wouldnt get a clue

and even though i dont really care about him or his opinions, and i know what he said shouldnt get to me, it does.

so a big rasberry to him

and no posting atm for me

another post inspired by…..

saw this here (another one i bother with that i havent bothered to add to the list yet – and god, theres a fair few of those) and thought, why not? also, plenty of others have done this before i bothered to, so no, im not stealing it from you, i gave credit to where i saw it FIRST. thats enough in my book.

“Four”
4 jobs you’ve had in your life
pizza hut schmuck
charter airline hostess
credit controller
working for myself (with the best boss ive ever had)
4 movies you would watch over and over again
Dumbo
The Power of One
Two Hands
The Motorcycle Diaries
4 places you have lived
Western Sydney
Central Coast
South Coast
Central West
4 TV shows you watch
Third Watch
CSI
Desperate Housewives
Sunrise
4 places you have been on holiday
id rather think of 4 places im yet to go – much more fun!
4 websites you visit
www.Ebay.com
www.961.com.au
www.freestats.com
www.lesbo101.com
4 places you would rather be right now
in bed
at the beach
spending time with a certain person who shall remain nameless
at the park with bugalugs

So now you try it

You’ve got mail

you just have to love email dont you?

its like your normal mailbox, only worse.

you still get bills. you still get letters from people you know just saying hi or whatever (and just like your real mailbox, these are far outnumbered by the rest of the mail you receive). you still get boring statements. unsolicited mail addressed to you like you should know what the hell they are on about. requests for donations (to which i suggest that even if you dont support that charity, use it as a reminder to donate again to one that you DO support).

and then you get stuff like i did today. 8, yes count them, EIGHT emails from people who obviously know me somehow, but for the life of me i cannot remember them. even allowing for people who i used to speak to and either got the shits with or got bored of, thats still gotta leave at least one person who for no good reason i cannot remember.

so i ask you, if you were one of these 8 strangers, let me know who the hell you are and how i know you. or more to the point, how come i DONT know you.

but then again, ill probably forget.

How do you type a wolf whistle?

i ask because this is a construction site

and i dont know about you, but when im near a construction site thats what happens – they whistle.

and as ive said, im not finished spiffing up this blog, and bringing it up to spec.

so stop bitching about me not having put up all those new pics

stop bitching about the incomplete blog roll and your name not being on it yet

stop bitching about links that dont link anywhere

im getting there, OK?

and if it annoys you that much, how about offering to help?